Day 205 of 365

~ B.K Laurel

What? June’s already over??

JU—-LYING!!!

(Yes I know I’m late…bear with me.)

Wow, where to start? I’ve already done so much; I’ve traveled, written music, and procrastinated over school, what more is there to say?

I’m happy.

I’m so undeniably happy and I never get tired of saying that. This year has been something absolutely wonderful. I feel like every month I find a new piece of me and this month I found notes on a page that sings a new melody.

Yes, that means I’m writing again.

I made it a resolution for 2018 not to forget about the music but would you believe it, that’s exactly what I did. For the first half of the year, I hadn’t written any new songs nor stepped foot in my piano room, but this month I broke the silence and played to remember why I loved it so much in the first place.

And all of a sudden, the voices of all the people who keep asking me why music is no longer my major flooded my mind. To each and every person who asked, I never gave a suitable answer and I’ll never understand why I’m so content with that. After all, music is quite possibly the only skill I’ve ever been able to admit I’m good at, yet I shy away from it. Why?

Maybe because I know I’ll always have it and that I don’t necessarily need a degree to certify who I am; a composer. I know I’m a composer and I know I can take all the musical classes I want without ever feeling the need to compete because I’m there for the sole purpose of having fun. I’m afraid that if I take my music too seriously, the happiness it brings me will die and my focus will not be the music itself but the query of will I ever be good enough? 

I don’t want to pursue music for a grade, I want to pursue it for what it is, a synonym for all things beautiful.

Is that suitable?

For now it is.

Anyway, thank you so much for reading and I’ll see you next time on the blog.

Be seeing you. xX

Published by B.K Laurel

As it says in my tagline: I'm just a writer writing about love because that's what all the cool kids are falling into these days. However, the type of love I write about is based more on the likeliness of modern day heartbreak. I originally started this blog as an outlet for therapy. I believe writing soothes the mind and allows us to express our feelings, which is exactly what I do here -- but in the form of poetry and spoken word pieces. I began writing in 2016 and I like to think the content I put out is relatable and hard-hitting since there's nothing new under the sun. You'll come to find I struggle a lot but without struggles, there is no growth, and believe me, I am growing. Slowly, I am working towards publishing my own works. Gallimaufry (one of the categories here on my blog) is one of them. I'm also in the process of writing, "war & peace", "where two hearts unify as one", & "i sold my heart to buy yours". Until then, feel free to linger around and read a few of my pieces; if you like what you see, be sure to hit the follow button at the bottom of my page to keep up with my posts and like & comment as you wish! Other than that, thank you for reading my About Me page! I'll be seeing you, B.K. Laurel

2 thoughts on “Day 205 of 365”

  1. “a synonym for all things beautiful”
    w o w. lovely.
    wonderful post. happy for you. wishing you nothing but progress and happiness for the rest of the year and all to come. xo

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