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Rest In Peace

I feel most comfortable when I’m sad Because to some extent, it's peaceful Staring blankly into space Consumed by nothing short of emptiness Lacking appetite Losing hope Surrounded by complete and utter silence Just the way I like it Peaceful And sure they say sadness is temporary But happiness is too Sadness just signs a… Continue reading Rest In Peace

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Conflicted, lost, but trying.

Sometimes I don't understand why I always try to do things the right way. Especially when they don't feel right to me. But I like to think it's because I want to make other people happy. To me, the right way is their way. Never my way. Because my right is wrong. And my wrong… Continue reading Conflicted, lost, but trying.

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Disengaged.

Midnight. Call starts on 2% battery, He says I love you and the phone dies. Forgets to call the next day. He forgets. 2 a.m. He said when everyone else is asleep, We’ll talk. He knocks out with them. And as I lie awake, I dread the apology he’ll write the next morning. I’ve gotten… Continue reading Disengaged.

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in this world.

He was my supplement of the sun when my sun no longer shined. My overview of the world when my eyes became blind. He was my inner sweetest, most deepest desires. But also the match that sparked my internal fires. I did not realize I was flammable Until I suffered third degree burns God, when… Continue reading in this world.

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the things i really wanted to say, but didn’t.

When I looked into your eyes just now, I felt utterly vulnerable. I couldn't remember the last time we had a one-on-one conversation or the last time we were in sync or even the last time you looked at me with the sole purpose of knowing all of me. I couldn't remember. No, I can't… Continue reading the things i really wanted to say, but didn’t.

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please leave a message after the beep.

3:07am Hey, I’m sorry if this is a bad time, but I’ve been feeling lonely lately and I just wanted to know how you were doing. Call back when you can, All right, bye. 4:27am Hey, it’s me, again. Sorry, I’m calling, it’s just that I’m feeling weaker by the hour and I don’t know… Continue reading please leave a message after the beep.