Gallimaufry

The Kind of Life I Want to Live.

I'm recording him as he helps her take her first steps. And I'm making dinner while he's teaching him how to play ball. And he sits by the piano every evening to hear me play the music I've spent all day writing for him. And I wouldn't trade this for anything in the world because… Continue reading The Kind of Life I Want to Live.

2018, Gallimaufry

Journal Entry #34

28 JUNE 2018 8:30 pm; Thursday. Brooke. I think I love someone. But it might be infatuation  So right now I'll just stay quiet For I don't want to scare him. But I think I might just love him. A little more than the last, And maybe more than I've ever, But right now I'll… Continue reading Journal Entry #34

Gallimaufry

the things i really wanted to say, but didn’t.

When I looked into your eyes just now, I felt utterly vulnerable. I couldn't remember the last time we had a one-on-one conversation or the last time we were in sync or even the last time you looked at me with the sole purpose of knowing all of me. I couldn't remember. No, I can't… Continue reading the things i really wanted to say, but didn’t.

Gallimaufry

what is love if it’s not genuine?

His favorite artist became his second when he met me, and I hope for my own benefit that he still thinks of me that way even though we are long past meeting. And long past loving. Separation and time really makes you wonder what parts of the relationship was truly genuine and which parts were… Continue reading what is love if it’s not genuine?

Gallimaufry

sometimes battles don’t make us stronger.

You were all I ever needed, You were all I thought was good, Until good became a question, But letting you go, I never could. So I tried to make it better, But better wasn't enough, Your depression overwhelmed me, And soon it hurt to bluff. I can't handle it I told you, I could… Continue reading sometimes battles don’t make us stronger.

Gallimaufry

leave me before i get too close.

The beast is real. And it manipulates the way we feel. Instead of looking for the good in people, we look for the bad and find ourselves loving them anyway. Because we're under the impression that if you don't have a story, you're not a victim to pain. As if those who get wet when it… Continue reading leave me before i get too close.