Gallimaufry

the things i really wanted to say, but didn’t.

When I looked into your eyes just now, I felt utterly vulnerable. I couldn't remember the last time we had a one-on-one conversation or the last time we were in sync or even the last time you looked at me with the sole purpose of knowing all of me. I couldn't remember. No, I can't… Continue reading the things i really wanted to say, but didn’t.

Gallimaufry

what is love if it’s not genuine?

His favorite artist became his second when he met me, and I hope for my own benefit that he still thinks of me that way even though we are long past meeting. And long past loving. Separation and time really makes you wonder what parts of the relationship was truly genuine and which parts were… Continue reading what is love if it’s not genuine?

Gallimaufry

sometimes battles don’t make us stronger.

You were all I ever needed, You were all I thought was good, Until good became a question, But letting you go, I never could. So I tried to make it better, But better wasn't enough, Your depression overwhelmed me, And soon it hurt to bluff. I can't handle it I told you, I could… Continue reading sometimes battles don’t make us stronger.

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leave me before i get too close.

The beast is real. And it manipulates the way we feel. Instead of looking for the good in people, we look for the bad and find ourselves loving them anyway. Because we're under the impression that if you don't have a story, you're not a victim to pain. As if those who get wet when it… Continue reading leave me before i get too close.

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it used to be you.

I'm surprised how quickly I became infatuated with a stranger I barely knew. And maybe it was because he was the first boy I saw that wasn't you or if he was just someone so new; I cannot tell you specifically, I can only say how he made me feel. And I know the sky… Continue reading it used to be you.

For him.

i asked Him.

I asked God to give me a sign. And He told me to look not at your past but instead at mine. At how the kind of person I was then is not who I am now, That over time the person inside me changed in ways I began to allow. And He said it… Continue reading i asked Him.