Last night I dreamt I was 22 and for some reason, it scared me.
I felt my youth slip away and instead of feeling liberated, I felt trapped; bound by a death that’s soon to come.
I don’t mind dying, just dying too soon.
And it feels like my time is coming. Every morning I wake up to a new loss and yet I’m too busy looking ahead to notice the edge of my own reckoning. I always think I’ll last longer — then I trip and the cliff doesn’t catch me.
God, catch me.
Don’t let them convince me you left me.
You left me?
Dear God, can you hear me?
Dear God, are you near me?
Dear God, can you save me?
Dear God, can you —
I had a dream I turned 22. Checked the date and it’s true. Dear God —
What do I do?
God, what do I do?
Published by B.K Laurel
As it says in my tagline: I'm just a writer writing about love because that's what all the cool kids are falling into these days. However, the type of love I write about is based more on the likeliness of modern day heartbreak. I originally started this blog as an outlet for therapy. I believe writing soothes the mind and allows us to express our feelings, which is exactly what I do here -- but in the form of poetry and spoken word pieces. I began writing in 2016 and I like to think the content I put out is relatable and hard-hitting since there's nothing new under the sun. You'll come to find I struggle a lot but without struggles, there is no growth, and believe me, I am growing.
Slowly, I am working towards publishing my own works. Gallimaufry (one of the categories here on my blog) is one of them. I'm also in the process of writing, "war & peace", "where two hearts unify as one", & "i sold my heart to buy yours".
Until then, feel free to linger around and read a few of my pieces; if you like what you see, be sure to hit the follow button at the bottom of my page to keep up with my posts and like & comment as you wish!
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I'll be seeing you,
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